It’s all too crazy, really. Still having a lot of success with 2012. The Rolling Stone feature is due in the August 3 issue and I think it’s really going to catapult sales. Ben gaving me a rather glowing probationary evaluation, and said he hopes I can be patient for a couple of years; if there’s no room for me to move up in T_____ at that point, he’ll help me go somewhere else. I’m in no rush to leave T____. It’s a good little imprint.
I went to Hannah’s over the July 4 weekend. I actually didn’t go until Sunday, since the area had flooded for the third time in two years. Hannah’s house was raised ten feet after the second flood, so they were basically okay, tho they had to move stuff off the garage floor and then clean up after the few feet of water receded. Hannah’s garden was trashed and mud got into the pool and the phone and electric were off for a while. Some of her neighbors who hadn’t raised their houses didn’t get off nearly as lightly, and it was sad to see.
Leo didn’t feel up to coming to PA with me, so I went alone. We sat in the sun, ate, smoked dope, watched some movies. Very nice.
I’m kind of fed up with Will. I don’t think he can manage not to be greedy and selfish when it comes to sex, so no more sex with Will. I’m just tired of trying to correct him away from what he is. Leo and I went to the screening of the Whitefish film at Lincoln Center (Walter Reade Theater) last week, and he and the film guys did a Q&A from the stage after. Needless to say, he announced several things that I at one time would have expected to hear before he announced it to 200 strangers (like that his ex-girlfriend is coming to town this summer, that he’s recording some of her songs for a ‘zine insert, and that Milo is allegedly sober). I can’t make myself be more important to Will. I’m tired of trying to make him more user-friendly. He can be who he is. I can pretty much walk away. We’re supposed to have lunch on Monday. I don’t mind having the occasional lunch with him, but I don’t think he’ll be a close friend again. It’s not what he wants, no matter what he thinks. He wants a sex toy. He keeps *saying* that the friendship comes first, but he didn’t even approach me before the screening to say hello or anything. (Neither did Sherry.) I sure haven’t been invited to visit or to come to a rehearsal or anything. I’m just sick of both of them. (Their daughters were both at the screening, and were extremely nice and friendly to me.)
Things have been somewhat quiet between Joe and me, but tonight’s his party. I read a four-year-old interview with him where he mentions a girlfriend, but no matter how many times I read it and how much I thought about it, there’s no way to tell if he still does. (Duh.) Then again, I’m married, so who am I to talk? Him, I’d like for a friend at this point.
I’ve been enjoying the jewelry thing again lately. I can get into that flow, that creative spot, and it’s a real thing of beauty; being a weekend hobby doesn’t take anything away from that feeling. I can get there pretty fast. I didn’t go to work on Wednesday — I’d actually had a really bad stomach for a few days, since PA. It was my first sick day since I’ve been at this job, the two months temp and over two months permanent, which must be a record for me. So I had a couple of blissfully long sessions making jewelry. Hannah had brought back some beads from Mexico which she wanted me to use to make some things for her, and I made all three pieces in one morning, and started on a really pretty necklace for myself. I’m using rougher, funkier pieces these days, and ending up with pieces that are much more naive than refined. The one I’m working on now is a necklace of irregular, polished natural mother-of-pearl (tan striped with white), wire-wrapped, and a fringe (beads on headpins attached to the wraps on the main beads) of small blue-brown beads (some rough Peruvian blue opal, rough apatite, and a few funky little aquamarine rondelles).
Things at home are okay. Leo is needy these days, but I’m not. The two new air conditioners have been life-savers, but our little old hand-me-down fridge is close to croaking. The freezer, which is fairly clogged with frost, barely makes ice cubes, and milk goes bad after a day in the fridge. So it looks like we’ll be buying a new fridge next month. Cooking is basically impossible without a good fridge, since the food stores in our neighborhood are pretty much closed when I get home on a weeknight, and there’s no way to keep fresh or frozen food. (I was having serious food-storage lust at Hannah’s: she has a huge new fridge in the kitchen, with a freezer drawer and ice maker and water filter/dispenser, plus a second fridge in the laundry room, plus a big freezer in the garage.) I tend not to be an every-night cook when I’m working, but I’m going nuts not being able to cook at all, or to keep ice cream. Basically, we only use the fridge to keep bottled drinks cool and for the bit of ice we can make.
We are seeing Elvis Costello and Allen Toussaint at the Beacon on Tuesday, and I am extremely psyched!